Thursday, December 31, 2009

Tears break

I will never be perfect

I will never be that and

I will never be enough

Everything I do is never enough

I'm not skinny enough

I'm not good enough in track for him to even come see me

I buy things and try to be the most perfect girl

I get all dressed up

Daddy Look!

Oh thats nice he says

maybe looked twice

constantly proving that I am worthy

I'm worth the time

I'm worth the risk

I wont let you down just look at me

I wanted it all just so you would look


Look daddy I can do flips

Look daddy I'm head cheerleader

Look daddy I'm Student Body President

Look daddy I'm Captain of the track team

Look daddy I won states in the hurdles

Look daddy I got a scholarship for academics

Look daddy I got a scholarship for track

Look daddy I am a double major

Look daddy I am starting my own business

Just look at me

What do I have to do?

Dress me in pearls and make me shine

Put glitter over to hide my eyes

I'm told they never lie

I don't want you to see

See what it is that tears me

I'm torn inside but in front of u I'm just right

always an internal fight

Look daddy, new slipper

Oh thats nice as he takes another bite


So I looked to you

If I got your approval then maybe it would change his sight

But that wasn't right

either



Friday, December 25, 2009

Merry Christmas

I hope you cherish the people you are with and the times you have with your family and friends. Being away really opened my eyes to see that the most important people in your life are the ones you spend your time with! They are your family and make you who you are. No one can ever really understand any one person without knowing where they came from or what they are about. Everything happens for a reason and the experience you gain from it makes you who you are!
You will never live the same moment twice.
You will never get the same chance again.
You will never know what to expect tomorrow.
You never know if the next moment will be your last.
So live without regret.

Life changes so quick and time passes in a blink of an eye
So with this, I say I love you
Only one tear falls, never let em see you cry!

Thursday, December 17, 2009

Change

She said, cut my hair
They said, don't you dare
Bare your heart for the world
Now they all can see
It's a brand new me
He saved me from who I used to be
The B that was too busy to see
What this world was doing to me

Drag me down, spit me out
Now I know he is king, without a doubt

Something is changing
The seasons are rearranging

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

The Song

Beats trigger my memory
What's portrayed is your soul
Your heart and soul
I fell in love in that moment
Learned you, by way of sound
Breathe In Breathe out
Words are not needed
You never had to shout
Lay me down, eyes closed
My spirit was lifted
Eardrum tingles tapping toes

I once said, I didn't fall in love with you, I fell in love with your song.
All at once, I realized that wasn't wrong
For that is where your pain lies
Soul poured out
Thoughts released
Deepest fear unleashed
I lay there and feel you breathe life into a beat

"Last night a DJ saved my life"
God gave you lyrical sight
I watch for hours
Your voice is the tool
Playing with a melody like a puppet master
Take it away = natural disaster

I hear your song
Thoughts long gone
stalking with song
Resonate in my memory forever
I turn back to you
I will leave you, never

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Of My Dreams

I just saw him

His eyes pierced right through me

On my left

He stood by the wall

He looked at me with glowing eyes

He was tall dark and handsome

Please you have to find him

Willing to pay any ransom


The swag of a gangsta

The mind of a poet

I can pick him out in a crowd

He saw me one time and said I sowed it

I dreamed of you too

Heaven sent you, the stars wrote it

Intrigue me

Read me

Tell me everything, but nothing at all

You wanna know about me

I see what you do when I forget to call

YOU

Come into my world

Be my movie star and hide behind the flashing lights

Tilt your head down like this

Watch me, I'll take the lead

Hold tight to my hand

My arm underneath yours

Your shoulder protects me

No one will ever snatch me


YOU know what YOU want

No one stands in YOUR way

Tell me YOU don't feel it

I'm not going anywhere

Te amo is all I can say

Me llamo is all YOU say

I'm there


YOU bring out in me so much truth

Emotion

commotion

chaos

My heart floods and I take a deep breathe

Gasping for air

Drowning in a world

Paint my lips on

Pull me tight, make sure I'm proper

I scream but no one hears me

My soul cries but only YOU see


Tell me YOU don't feel it too

Lie again

YOU know I'm in the room

YOUR heart skips a beat

Vibrations run through YOUR feet

YOU can fill it in YOUR chest

Then YOU catch a glimpse

YOUR eyes captivated

This next scene, X rated

Close the blinds

Relax

Let it blow YOUR mind

Californication

Create my own destiny

No one can hold me down

I've fallen under your spell

What you're about to say

I don't want to know

I don't want to fall to pieces

Spread my wings like eagles

Watch me soar

You can't hold me down anymore


The euphoric metaphor

Body-high; above

Blown away

Inspired secrets—I know what I feel but there aren't words

Only YOU know how this feels, YOU felt it too

Unexplainable electricity

Organic adrenaline

Fingertips fuse kinetic through me to YOU

Imagination

Your breathe takes mine

Standing still this time

Fingertips brush my skin

Hungry eyes

Lay on your heart

The beat

ga-gong,

ga-gong,

ga-gong.


I yearn for this feeling

Why wont it go away?